korean girl

sorry for not letting any of my lj friends know im blogging other places
i'm all over the internet really but here are proper links;

http://jeshx.blogspot.com
http://jeshx.tumblr.com
http://twitter.com/jeshxo

xoxo

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to do list for my 1 day of my weekend;
1. pay off bills
2. eat healthy/pack lunch
3. meet christybabies
4. buy new lashes
5. get a pedicure
6. straighten hair
7. work out
8. cuddle with chris
9. go to sleep super early


so excited to get this started, goodnight xo

"I always knew you were secretly a mermaid. Humans can't be so pretty." -Kris Adamo

I love you, xo

Long Tran, longzone.net

I'm working the Akira Spring/Summer fashion show at the end of this month.
I'm so excited, I'm just gonna pass out!

I can't wait for New York and just not caring about idiot ex best friends that suck at life.

I'm happy that my life is awesome and the people who definitely sucks is not.

I'm off to the Millienium Park with my roommate and her friend.
I want to wear this dark of lip shade everywhere I go now.

Thank you Chicago for not being so cold this early in the year.

can't stop, won't stop

When I was younger, my best friends and I would sit around and just talk SHIT on people we knew.. friends, sluts, dudes, just people that went to shows in general. We would talk about how ridiculous they were, how fake their personality screamed, how much we just hated them all.

Now that I'm growing up, I realized that half of those people we hated weren't really all that bad. And the worst people in my life that are ridiculous, having fake personalities and who I seem to hate the most are.. my best friends.

Now I wonder, out of all those people that thought I was such a bitch for judging them so hard. How do I go about apologizing on how stupidly I acted? I feel like the friends I keep from high school seem to make me stay in high school. When I was in Boston and alone, my life didn't dwell on shit talking or who's facebook/myspace picture had what. I just want to get rid of everyone and go back on starting brand new.

How can you tell someone you've known you're whole high school career that they're just too immature for what you want to be?

My answer: Ya just can't.




ps. got my nails done, already broke a nail, and yes i definitely need a fill

lately i dream of traveling odd places and fighting the most random people
but when i punch them, their face feels like pillows on my fist, i wake up angry.

tomorrow i meet the director for this small part of a movie,
i play an angry punk girl that's mad at the world, i'm super sarcastic and threaten someone's life
this role is too perfect to be true

they want me to dress "as punk as possible" but to the normal world,
what the fuck does that mean?


i'm craving a cup of jasmine oolong right now

I want to leave Chicago but everyone seems to want to come up here!?

One of the roommates is giving me the worse hints on how I'm gaining weight and getting fat.
I'm about to knock a stupid mother fucker out for talking shit, I don't think he understands what line he's about to cross..... seriously. Do not poke the fucking bear.

this shade of red I have is NOT what I wanted but I'm gonna wait a little and try again


i wish my mind didn't try to escape me every time i felt confident in myself
i don't even have determination in me for anything anymore


i am actually enjoying sleeping in, eating out, stay up....
and i feel like the biggest piece of shit when i type it out and realize how disgusting i'm getting